A guest blog by Courtney Hobbs
You can look at anything in multiple ways. Rain can be a setback in your plans to go for a long walk or it can be an indicator that Spring is coming. Rain can create a muddy mess or a helping cleanse. Your perspective dictates how you see everything in your life.
Over the last 6 months I have learned to observe my own perspective on many things and that has made all the difference.
In the Fall 2015 I was very sick. I was battling depression, anxiety, extreme fatigue and stress. My body had been giving me signs for months; I had intense hip troubles including my psoas and sacrum, I was chipping teeth from clenching, shoulder tension led to inner ear pain and I was gaining weight from fatigue. I excused everything away by finding multiple reasons for why things were happening… I was around the corner from my 30th birthday, had a new mortgage, needed glasses and just figured this is what aging was like. Being a real adult was hard and that was that. Then one day I had a Spiritual Awakening (for those Brene Brown fans out there!).
I was at work and talking with two wonderful colleagues when all of sudden it all came out. I couldn’t hide it anymore. I was miserable. Void of the ability to see all the wonderful things that were happening in my life. Making decisions was an insurmountable task. Planning ahead was a struggle. I had no boundaries. I pushed myself over and over, day after day to do all of the things I thought needed to be done. Finally, I started fantasizing about suicide. I feared being alone with myself. I hated my thoughts.
I am fortunate enough to be in a profession where I have support to take time to get better. I left work that day and have been given the time I have needed to get healthy again. My approach to getting better has been holistic and quite aggressive. I had experienced many of these similar feelings as my past 16-year-old self so I knew I was capable of overcoming this. I was ready to face my mental illness and begin healing.
I worked, and continue to work, with my family Doctor, a Chinese Medicine Doctor, a Holistic Energy Practitioner, an RMT, a Chiropractor and a Counsellor. I also found two powerful wellness practices that I had lost in my overwhelming busyness - my meditation practice and my Joy Journaling.These two daily practices allowed me to stay grounded and focused on what matters most (As an aside: It’s funny how some of the healthiest things we can do for ourselves we often neglect or replace when we don’t think we have ‘enough time). Additionally, I have a partner that has been an unconditional and powerful supporter, especially when I made the decision to not take medication as a part of my healing. I wanted to do everything naturally and feel in full control of myself.
Exercise and nutrition were the next step in my healing process. I had been taking NeoLife whole food supplements for a while but just for general well-being. I knew now that I needed more. I could feel my motivation bubbling and my ambition to feel better growing but something was missing. I sought out education on the NeoLife company and product to gain perspective on how it could help me and I knew it was right. I started taking a variety of specific supplements that would target the aspects of my mental and physical health that needed support. I took everything with commitment and the consistency in that gave me the energy and confidence I needed to get back to exercising. As a former fitness instructor I was use to being able to trust my body. In the past I could rely on my body and never said no to new physical challenges. As my mental health deteriorated so did my physical health. I had lost a lot of my confidence and allowed myself to be put down by negative self-talk. I struggled to see the “old” me let alone the “new” me I was working so hard to become. Once I stepped back into the gym (and yoga studio) I knew I was ready to push myself. My NeoLife products helped fuel me for those first few moments and continue to fuel me now that I am back to working out 5-6 times a week! Instead of fearing what I can’t do I get excited to see where each workout will push me. I look at myself in the mirror and savour the last moments with the excess I have gained knowing I will get healthier one day at a time.
A few months ago I was visualizing how it would all end. Waking up each day unsure of what I was living for. Today I am happy to say I wake up excited for everything ahead. I can’t wait for the changes, developments and joys that are ahead. I don’t want to miss a day. When it rains I am either grateful for a perfect “excuse” to rest or excited for the coming puddles to jump in! My perspective on life has changed. My perspective on myself has changed. I have changed the way I look at everything.
My name is Courtney Hobbs. I am 30-years-old. I am a former fitness instructor, a health and wellness enthusiast and a believer in my future realities. My work-in-progress website is: www.onelettermore.com and my NeoLife homepage is: www.neolifeclub.com/cghobbs If you have any questions or comments please feel free to contact me at firstname.lastname@example.org